Words disappeared,
where to ? I wonder.
What am I missing?
Where did it go?
That fleeting feeling
of words streaming.
Rushing, gushing and
filling my canvas with
stories around me,
those that ruin me,
and those that happen
only inside my head.
Suddenly feeling numb
or am I just dumb?
Did all those talks we had
and those we never had
empty me? leaving
a cold you, a colder me.
Explaining that my no is a no,
and making it a maybe-yes,
when I could argue no more.
The talks that we never had,
each time I stunned at my
ignorance of your indifference.
What am I? Why the painful tugs?
Was I hallucinating ?
or was I only dreaming?
What was I even contemplating?
All the whats and the whys
have left me, with wet eyes.
Are you happy now?
Is your sly laugh complete?
after making me all that crazy.
Do I regret it? I wonder.
No, How else would have
I known, that I am better?
That's what I think, after
painful moments pass,
that they were just lessons,
blessings in disguise,
to reveal my stronger self,
to stay as I am ,
the imperfect but complete Me.